Leaving a comfort zone

Leaving the comfortable life I have grown so fond of in Thailand. Knowing some of the language, the food, the geography puts me into a state of non thinking which has been marvelous. I know I do not need to worry about my safety, my belongings. I know I can get to the internet to connect with all of you. I can dress in all the clothes I so love and feel confortable that wearing

jewlery will not drawn unnecesary attention to me.

Such will not be the case in India. I am sure many of you are asking just why I need to go there. I too question my decisions. At home, in cold and windy Honeoye, it seemed perfectly logical. Now I second guess, as I seem to do so much these days. These weeks away have confirmed my desire to have some sort of boutique hotel/bed and breakfast-regardless of "all the work" it will be. I need to be working at something so why not at something I love. So a part of me wishes to hurry home and begin packing to ....and then I get stuck with my dream in mid air and realize I have no where. So India is a place for me to reach back into the memory banks to a life that held endless possibilities in developing worlds. Maybe nothing will come of my time there, or maybe my world will shift. Maybe I am just bidding time....

I have someone picking me up at the airport and a decent hotel in an area of Delhi that I am familiar with. Once everyone left on Sunday I was able tomake more solid plans about where to go and how to get there. This made the entire journey seem less daunting. I look forward to India in so many ways, but the selfishness in me knows I will miss this feeling of complete non worry. There is an organization in Biknar that may be taking volunteers for 1 month commitments, it is there that my direction leads (with a stop in Naguar for a camel fair if I am lucky).

So sawatee ka for now and chok di ka

I look forward to sharing India with you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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